Burnout?

I admit, I can feel the teacher burnout lingering within me. I raised my voice at a student yesterday. I felt guilty about it the whole rest of the day and probably let it bother me more than I needed to. Most likely the student forgot about it five seconds after I did. But seriously, there are some rules I do not enjoy repeating over and over (ie please do not talk when I am talking). So I half yelled "HEY, I am talking and you're being rude! STOP TALKING." I have always vowed not to be that teacher-the one who yells all the time to communicate with the students. It is bothering me. Seriously, though, they are annoying me.

Now, I'd like to clarify, this is not the same type of burnout I experienced the first time I taught-that was what I refer to as "out of control burnout" (like skidding head first toward a cliff burnout). Or, the "I keep having dreams I'm being chased but I'm flying to try and get away" burnout. I do not enjoy flying in dreams. It freaks me out and every time I'm flying, I'm trying to get away from something dangerous. Eeesh. This burnout though is just the typical I need two weeks off burnout.

I talked with another teacher about it-and apparently what I did was totally normal, and every teacher does it. Sometimes, you just have to raise your voice to get their attention. I admit, it did work for that afternoon-the whole class was quiet since they've never heard me blurt out like that. But still. I didn't enjoy it.

I have to remember that teenagers are not fully human (minus one or two mature ones). Teenagers need extra help remembering basic rules (pick up your trash, yes you have to wear your ID, don't touch each other, stop sticking paper in the back of Joe's sweatshirt hood, don't throw the book on the floor, your cell phone goes in your backpack, don't touch anything on my desk or I'll touch all your stuff in your backpack...I could go on).

Oh, and I'd really like to know WHO FREAKING TOOK MY DOOR STOP AGAIN? Seriously, I'm pissed. It disappeared after 4th hour and I only had this door stop for two days. Annoyed. I want to find a way to torment them for it disappearing. I'm going to go find a huge boulder to shove in front of the door. See if they take that.