Grief Share-Mustache, Mullets, Symptoms of Grief & Paradise Bakery Cookies

If I ever am blessed to run a grief share group (which I have thought about lately), I definitely feel cookies should be involved.Why? Cookies are the best comfort food ever. I think I've admitted this before. Anyway, last night we had week 3 of our grief share meeting. This one focused on symptoms of grief (lots of emotions and physical symptoms). We all stopped for cookies at Paradise Bakery on the way...so yummy...

I'm not sure if I've mentioned this, but the video was made in the 80's. The fashion proves it. Now, I try to be mature and not focus on the awesomely bad fashion, but at times I just can't help it. There is one guy who has the largest mustache we've all ever seen-it covers both his lips and is all crooked. Every time he comes on, I see Eric start to giggle. Then I see Garrett and Georgia look over-and finally we're all just trying not to giggle so loud.

The mustache guy is impressive, but I almost lost it when I saw the guy with the mullet. I immediately just couldn't focus on what he was saying and just stared fascinated at the mullet. A real mullet. And, he had a mustache too. It was great. I don't know what point he made about grief though...but the mullet did work to cheer a grieving heart.

In any case, they all made good points about grieving. There are very real physical symptoms that go along with it. I remember just being tired all the time. Sleeping. Staring at the wall and wanting to avoid all people. I wouldn't call people back because it just took too much energy to talk.

On the way home, we were devising a plan that involved mustaches like the guy's on the video. We were laughing and teasing each other. And then it hit me-I actually felt a little joy. Just feeling happy at spending time with eric, my brother and sister-in-law, and laughing. I think that is the first time I've laughed for real. 11 months. 11 months to finally laugh again and mean it.

There is a song on Air One, and if you know who sings it can you please tell me? I've carried one line of the lyric with me for 11 months now...I remember hearing this song on the radio shortly after Dad died, and it will pop into my head on days that I just seem to struggle:

"Though my heart is torn, I will praise you in this storm."